Is it good to fall in love when you travel, knowing that is going to end?
I must be honest with you and tell you, this is not the first time I ask myself this question, and normally, after long time of not finding an answer for that, I get to the: "should I live, enjoy the moment and go for it, or should I just realize my truth, my time is limited, and I should avoid to suffer?"
well, If you have ever ask yourself these questions, or related ones, let me tell you something, If is to suffer that you are afraid of, you are going to suffer anyways, pain is part of our lives, and we gotta learn to live with it, But, pain is just and no more what we make of it.
I personally like to make it lessons.
Few days away from Valentine's Day, and because of my situation I decide to use my escape, yeah, this is it, to write. For me is like talking to somebody that understands you and at the same time not talking with anyone.
So, if you follow my blog, you should know, I'm in Taiwan, Far, far, far from my home country, I am 19 years old at the moment, and travel is my passion, but as some of you know, travel brings more than happiness sometimes, it can bring also pain.
The I love you and I don't want to leave you kind of pain, for example.
People say: "the one who stays is the one who suffer the most", that's bullshit, and the one who goes, also suffers a lot, I can assure you that.
Sometimes you get attached to people without even noticing, it started, you started to enjoy every day with them, you started to have memories, pictures, videos, and then, puff, reality strikes again, you got used to them, and now, you have no time left.
But, what happens with relationships? well, I've been told that long distance relationships doesn't work, and If they work, it's because they know when they're gonna be together again, they count the days, But let me tell you, Taiwan, specifically my roommate, proved me that all that is bullshit.
And about me?
well, there's no much to say, I'm trying to learn Chinese, and at the same time I take a break for my mind practicing cheerleading, I honestly don't know where would I be right now, If I wasn't in the cheer team, they are the loveliest people I've met, they simply make me happy.
And about love? well, that is an interesting topic if you are talking with me. Less than two years ago, I had a bad experience, of which I don't want to talk about, and after that I made the personal decision of not loving anymore until the "right" moment arrives.
But when is the right moment?
And what happens when destiny strikes again?
Okay, here I am, this is the story.
One day, I received a friend request on Facebook, I look at it, and the first thing I notice was that the last name was the same like a friend of mine here, so I accepted.
few days later, he wrote me a really interesting message, and well, we went on a date, it was awesome.
like when you feel you found your soulmate, everything is so clear, even if we don't speak the same language, yeah, he speaks portuguese and I speak spanish but we understand each other.
after that, we pretty much talked a lot, but I honestly didn't start thinking about a possibility of having someone, but the other night, oh! the other night, he came to visit me, he brought chocolates, and, when I asked, "why is this for?"
He just said: "just because"
that. was. awesome.
made me feel an incredible curiosity about his feelings, but then, after he went, one of our friends texted me and said she have to give me something and then she showed up with a beautiful and fluffy teddy bear that smelled a LOT like his perfume, I blushed like a little girl when somebody gives her exactly what she asks.
And this is the moment when I am here smelling and looking the teddy bear and making a flashback to the first question, Should I forget about the time and just live, or forget about him and remember that time is limited?
