The last beginning

"A year in Taiwan"

Day 276 of 365.

You may think, what's so special about the number '276', well, there's nothing.

There's nothing special happening today.

Seriously.

But this day made me think a lot.

Actually, my thinking started on the day 274.

Okay, you must wonder why and I won't let you die of curiosity so this is it:

We finished book 3 of Chinese.

So we have 3 of 4 books done.

So we went on vacation, Cambodia and Thailand, both awesome countries.

But the day number 274, I had to come back to Taipei because my team had a really big competition and I couldn't miss it, I changed my flight to be here in Taipei that day and I only asked them to have the first place, and well, they didn't give me the proud of seeing them winning the first place, they, instead, give more, the won 3 first places.

And I'm so proud of them. Seriously, extremely proud.

And while I was there, watching a lot of teams fighting for the trophy, I was overthinking, as usual.

And I was wandering, thinking of the fact that I started classes the next day.

And it was not the thinking of "shit, tomorrow's Monday, I have to wake up early to go study Chinese"

Instead,

It was more like a "tomorrow I start the last book" kind of feeling.

And it was like a big free fall into reality.

It's the last one, the last fight, the last effort, the last beginning.

After this book, all this will be gone.

I will not have to go to Chinese class, I will not have a scholarship, my monthly money won't depend on my score, I won't live in a dorm...

I won't have a roommate...

I won't have all my friends in the same building...

I won't have cheerleading practice...

I won't see my cheerleader friends on the street...

I won't... I won't be a MARS cheerleader...

I won't be in Taiwan anymore....

The book 4 means a lot of things...

When this book finish, a lot of things will finish, a lot of things that will go all together to the land of memories.

So basically, the day 275, the first day of class, I was appreciating every single small detail of my daily life, trying to make it become a permanent memory.

The time for the traffic light to change...

The sound of people speaking Chinese...

The hot weather...

The smell of the foods...

I didn't think I could actually kind of appreciate a routine, yeah, I kind of feel like I'm going to miss some things of this daily routine thing.

But this is a period.

Which take us back to the day 276, today.

Well, basically, today I cleared my mind about it, organized my ideas, tried to organized my feelings but still don't have much so, yeah, I got to write this.

2 years ago, I was in Italy, in a similar situation, saying goodbye to a bunch of people that remained in my heart. And a sentence came out of my mouth:

"The sad thing about saying goodbye to some people here is that I am really going to miss them but it is so impossible that i go to Asia"

And yet here I am, living my 'eating with chopsticks' life, and I have met a few of them, and it feels awesome! 

So who knows, life's strange.

I don't know when I could come back here, but for now, I just want to enjoy my last months, to have a bunch of pictures, a bunch of stories, a bunch of memories, and a lot of "aww, I'm gonna miss this"